I was just thinking that I had a pretty shitty day today.

One of our guys resigned suddenly. Just sent an email saying he had personal problems and could not work well because of them and so goodbye, please understand how he valued his work. I was really shocked to get this as he's been a great employee (my favorite I have to admit), was doing a great job, we were actually planning to give him a raise next month and a bonus for work well done as well. Then bam. Resignation.

I am flipping between concern -- what problems could he have? and can we help him? -- and annoyance -- did we not even deserve the courtesy of a proper resignation and turnover?? I still don't know what to do. I will definitely email back and ask for a hardcopy resignation letter and a formal turnover. But aside from that I still cannot figure out if I am sad or pissed. Maybe both.

One thing that I have learned from working is that no one is indispensible. Yes, the company may hobble a bit when an important employee leaves, but after a while adjustments are made, and if the company foundation is good then things just go on from there. Lessons learned, adjustments made. Onward and outward heeh.

I would like to think that our company will still do well when I am gone. I will probably still do some work for the company but it will be very different not being in the center and feeling the pulse of things. I have to admit, I love the throb and buzz of work, and sometimes look for the tension of it all. Preparing a bid, winning a job, doing it well. What a high.

Losing is the shits though. And so is messing up a job so we have to go back and rectify. It's quite unavoidable, booboos in the construction field -- there are so many factors and parties involved in each project, but we try to catch things as early as possible and solve problems before they escalate.

We also spent some time at one of our projects where we had an inspection together with the Building Engineer. It turns out that our electrical and mechanical contractors did not do all the rectification work they were supposed to do. Argh. Checking this was the work of the resigned employee and I cannot help but feel that this inspection had something to do with his sudden resignation. I've decided to bite the bullet, give the contractors one more chance to fix the work. If the work isn't done to the Building Engineers satisfaction I will arrange to takeover work with another set of contractors and backcharge the original contractors with the work. I'm not too happy about this but I want the job done, and done properly. Sorry sorry na lang lahat. I am sick of this nonperformance.

And this is the shittiest part of my day. Mom hit her head on a window 2 weeks ago and got a bump on her head. She got an XRay shortly after and they found some swelling -- a hematoma. Compresses, some mild painkillers etc. Yesterday she said she could still feel the lump and she decided to get another XRay. This time the radiology team told her that they found some oval shaped shadows in her XRay and suggested she get a CTScan. She told me about that this morning.

I could barely keep that out of my mind all day. What if it was something bad? What would we do? So many "what ifs" went through my mind...I don't even want to write them here. I got to see the XRay when I got back to the office this afternoon and read through the results. They said the XRay was generally normal except for some shadowing mostly oval shaped of what could be "pacchionian depressions" Tried to look this up on the net but mostly found info related to fossils / ancient skeletons. Apparently these are formed by calcified spinal fluid and this is more common in adults / older people. I hope that is all there is to it please please God.

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